December? How did that happen?

Wow!

That's it. Just Wow!

Thanksgiving was a perfect day in the Fairfield Home this year. We welcomed a new member of the Fairfield Clan, Jane....all be it all the way out in Indiana....as she married Adam the day before Thanksgiving. And although we weren't able to attend we the happy couple were thought of often. My folks were here for the Holiday. As was my little brother Ronnie. We were thrilled to have Char and Mike, our wonderful next door neighbors, and our friends from down the street, the Jamiel Family, join us as well. Mike and Joel, both were on duty at the P.D. that night, but hung out as long as they could before all the happy Elko families started their festive holiday brawls! The also brought Aaron, another officer, over to join us. So, the house was full and happy. The food was good, the day was fairly relaxing, and, again, the company was wonderful. Just a perfect day.

Monday we took off to Ogden, Utah. We met up with the Eardley's and Jamiel's at Temple Square. We did a little shopping, then had dinner at the Olive Garden. Afterward, we attended "The Forgotten Carol's" by Michael McLean. WONDERFUL! A little more shopping today and then home for Shelby's first choir performance at the Festival of Tree's here in Elko. She was fabulous. But then, she's Shelby.

The trip may well become a family tradition for the Elko Fairfield's.

I was at the top of the Joseph Smith Memorial Building in Salt Lake City, when my Mom called to tell me that Traci and Jake had lost in court. Colby is being taken away by social workers on Saturday to be sent to live with his drug addict birth father and his drunk parents. Yep. I know. And yes, I realize this isn't the most Christlike way to respond to this turn of events. But it's all I can do. He's my nephew, and she's my baby sister. And this stupid paragraph is all I can do.

So, yeah, the performance last night elicited a much stronger response emotionally from me than I would normally display. Today I had to replace my makeup a couple of times. Don't know why I bothered. I just lost it all over again. And I'm just Colby's Aunt! But in all honesty, if I have ever in my life known anyone who would handle this awful situation with grace, dignity and in a Christlike manner, it is my Moser. She was special from the moment she came into the world. Even the angels knew that, they left a mark on her. But I hate that she, Jake, Jessalyn and Colby have to endure this. I know there is a plan. I know there is a purpose. I just cannot fathom it at this point. I don't know how to comfort her. I have no idea what to say, and I feel like I should have just shut my mouth about the blessings of adoption. Because, although I know that adoption truly brings wonderful blessings, right now, I wish my sister would never have tried to find out. But then....I can't imagine the past year and a half without Colby in our lives. Lauralee said that these first two years are the most formative of a child's life. Maybe Heavenly Father needed Colby to have the incredible start in life he has had because of my wonderful sister and Jake. Then again....maybe some things are just incomprehensible.

As I am sure you all know, I could go on and on. But I have to stop. I might short out the keyboard of this computer.

Love you all.....